Angel Whisper's
An angel whispers in our ear
Don't worry mommy and daddy I am here
I watch over you from up above
I see your tears and I feel your love
I know you want me there with you
But God had other things for me to do
I'm here with Peanut and now Sweetpea too
And we play in the clouds as we wait for you
I know its hard that a year's gone by
But I have my wings and I am learning to fly
So think of me mommy and daddy to
And smile knowing special angels watch over you
And each time you think of me up above
Please know that I am sending down my love
And those gentle feelings of a breeze
Those are lots of hugs for you from me
So please don't be sad that I went away
For I live in your hearts each and everyday
written for Trouble one year after growing wings

Dear Trouble,

My goodness little one where has the past two months gone. I come by and visit your page often but I haven't been able to bring myself to write you. I do think about you daily and can't keep myself from wishing you were here.

I will love you for always!
Mommy

Its Been A Week My Trouble Dear
Since God Decided To Call You Near
I Miss You More Than You Could Ever Know
Why Oh Why Did You Have To Go

You Are Among So Many Angels Above
So Much Family To Give You Love
I Wish I Could Be There With You
To Rock, To Hold And Kiss You Too

But God Is Not Quite Ready For Me
So Rest My Little One While You Wait To See
My Joy AS I come Through Heavens Gate
Into The Arms Of My Angels Who Sit And Wait

Written for Trouble on August 27,2006

Dear Trouble,

Oh my second baby how I am missing you so. One week ago I was given the wonderful news that you were going to be joining us. Its just not right that I had to say goodbye to you already. I know God has a path for all of us... but I just don't understand why my path had to include sending two precious babies to heaven.

I know you are up there resting peacefully with Peanut and all your loving family members but I want you HERE. I want to be dreaming of all the things we would do when you grew up. I want to be speculating if you would be a boy or a girl/ I want to wonder who you would look like, whose smile, whose eye color, whose hair would you have. I wonder what impact you would have had on the world. I know for the brief days I held you under my heart you made me a better person.

I love you my sweet little baby

Forever and Always
Mommy

Empty Arms

Empty Arms Again
Just When I Thought Our Dream Came True
Oh My Little Trouble
How Mommy And Daddy Are Missing You
A Second Child With Angel Wings
A Second Time When No Comfort Memories Bring
We Will See You Again One Day I know
And Oh How My Tears Of Joy Will Flow

Written for Trouble August 21, 2006

A Poem for Trouble

My Second Child
A Daughter Or A Son
Once Again God
You Took My Little One
I Try To Understand
I Know It Is Your Will
But Is There Ever A Time
That My Womb You’ll Allow to Fill

Written for Trouble on August 21, 2006

Dear Trouble,

My precious second baby oh why did you have to leave us??? I can't belive that within days of us learning of you that God called you home and you grew angel wings. Mommy knew you were leaving us early in the morning on Sunday and the grief was overwhelming. Off to the hosptial we went and we once again had to hear those dreaded words from the dr... I'm sorry. You were gone and we were once again forced to leave the hosptial with empty arms.

Mommy and Daddy love you so very much and we will never understand why you had to go. You are joining your big brother/sister Peanut as well as many other loving family members who have gone on before you.

You will be forever ever loved and missed and while you didn't take a breath on this earth you will live on forever in our hearts. Rest peacefully little one until the day Mommy and Daddy join you in heaven and can finally hold you in our arms.

All of my love forever and for always,
Mommy

Dear Trouble,

Yes thats right trouble lol... you have earned your nickname already my sweet little baby.

It all started with the EXTREME gagging session I had after claening up when Belle threw up the other day... I looked at daddy and said ut oh this ones gonna be trouble. Then later that day we were at the mall and having supper. Now I will let you know right now mommy HATES spicy stuff and yet I had this overwhelming urge to pour HOT SAUCE all over my food. Jiminy crickets I say... then said to daddy yep this ones gonna be trouble.

The big final decison for your nickname came after a scare we just had. I started spotting again and mommy was TERRIFIED that you were going to grow angel wings and join Peanut in Heaven., After many many many hours in the hospital we found out you are just fine... at least for now. Mommy had a subchronic bleed which caused the spotting but pregnancies can go on and be totally normal... mommy is just going to have to take extra good care of herself. I had an ultrasound but they wouldn't let me have a sneak peek at you ... we did learn that your fetal sac and pole are there and that you are closing in on 6 weeks so still a little to small for a heartbeat to be visable. I have to go on bedrest for the week.... thanks for the holiday from work I did want one but not this way you little monkey :) We left the hospital feeling so relieved but we know that you aren't completely out of danger yet. I have to phone Dr.G on Monday and see what he says. It was after all those hours of hoping and praying then being told you are okay that daddy looked at me and said yup... trouble :)

So Trouble you will remain until you enter this world... but sweetie please know that I will take whatever I have to and I will do everything the Dr's tell me to help keep you safe and sound in my tummy till you can make it in the outside world.

All My Love,
Mommy

Dear Little one,

Welcome to your first stage of life sweetie. Mommy and daddy already love you so very much. We have yet to come up witha nickname for you... but that will come in time as you make yourself more known to us.

You have a big brother or sister named Peanut. Peanut never did take a breath on this earth but instead grew angel wings and went to heaven to join granpa and granny. I am going to be praying doubly hard for you everyday that you stick with us through this whole journey.

I am still in shock that you are actually with us. I actually said "no way" to Dr. G when he called and he laughed at me. He has worked hard with us to see that you got this far and he will be there by our side as you grow and develop.

I can't wait to meet you.... sometime in April it would seem.

All my love,

Mommy